It is true what they say, that the more you know, the more you realize how much you don’t know.
I became a Christ follower when I was 16. After 30+ years of being a Christian, you would think I have it down pat basic concepts such as Loving God, Loving People, Knowing the Bible, Prayer. But this morning as I was praying, I saw once again my gross weaknesses. I am better than I used to be, but just as I thought I was pretty good, I am faced with the holiness of God, and realize that I still have so far to go.
However, I don’t feel dejected. I am able to accept God’s forgiveness, and have come to realize that this is the way the Christian life ought to be. To be in a state of constant neediness is a good thing. Our culture of positive thinking and self-sufficiency tells us that we should be able to solve all our own problems. In fact, the highest goal is not to have to depend on anyone. And even if we can’t solve our problems completely, the fact that we put forth our best efforts is commended.
But I am learning that admitting defeat and my own limitations opens my heart to rely more on God. As long as I think I can do things on my own, I will continue to exert my own efforts. But when I see my foolishness and frailty, compared to God’s perfection, I am humbled. And that’s a good thing.