I spoke at my daughter’s college fellowship group retreat on Saturday, and as is always the case, the teacher probably got more out of it than the students.
There was good feedback from the girls, and I myself also learned one thing that I need to apply to myself.
I said contentment comes when we rest in the sovereign providence of God.
Realistically, I’ve already lived [approximely] 65% of my life, and probably leaving [at most] 25 years of active productive life, depending on how you define productive. I am facing the empty nest, menopause, redefining who I am and what I do.
And I don’t have much time left to do it.
I am quite comfortable where I am, yet, I want to do something else, something more. But I don’t know what I really want.
Fortunately, God knows. I’ve learned from the previous 65% of my life the God knows me pretty well. Hindsight is 20/20 and I see all the foolish mistakes I’ve made. Yet God has guided me despite my immaturity, and he knew exactly what I needed.
For example, when I was in college, I wanted to go on a mission trip, primarily because my friends who attended BIOLA went. My parents were against it. It was a half-hearted desire on my part anyway, so I did not push it. Now looking back, I am sure I was too immature to go.
Another example is choosing a spouse. I really didn’t know what I needed in a husband. I went into marriage rather immaturely, mostly based on my feelings. Yet, the husband I have is exactly what I need.
God knows my personality, he knows my circumstances, he knows my hearts desires more than I know myself. He knows my past and my future. And above all, he loves me.
So I rest content knowing that I can trust in His sovereignty.