Had a full weekend of ministry. I enjoy the actual work but it’s the anticipation that stresses me.
PT and I recorded our 3rd episode of our podcast on Friday afternoon. While this podcast was my idea, and I had to talk him into it, this time I felt anxious. I had a dream the night before that I didn’t have my laptop in front of me and didn’t know what to say. I don’t know what my subconscious was telling me. The real recording time was fun though.
On Friday, I was to give the gospel message at Awana, not only with the children but also the parents will be present. I prep, rehearsed it several times, and was ready. The 2 nights before Friday, I felt anxious and had a bad dream. Once there, I feel God giving me the words to say. In my weakness God is strong.
Saturday morning was deacons meeting. I never look forward to these meetings at 8am, but at the end, I always feel grateful for these men who has served God faithfully for many years.
In the afternoon was the Awana appreciation of the Leaders. I try to plan everything so the Leaders can come and enjoy each other’s company. Again, I don’t like the anticipation, since there are logistics like set up, food, details that I hate. So grateful for my dear friend Denise for doing everything I ask her to do, and more. Everything was taken care of exactly as I hoped. God provides a community to serve together so that in my weakness the Body of Christ is strong.
I left early to rush to Irvine for my son and daughter in law’s gender reveal party. Anticipating the gender, rushing, having to leave the Awana appreciation in a rush, not having had a decent sit down meal of protein, all added to my short temper. And my husband is always the recipient of my frustrations.
At the end, everything was fine. God is good, and whatever was not done, well, it doesn’t matter. I really need to remember this. As much as I love my work, I see that this job has taken a toll on my emotional health.
I want to stop the high-strung way I respond to ordinary regular activities of life. I’ve said this before. I need to stop taking myself so seriously.