{"id":1814,"date":"2011-10-18T09:22:48","date_gmt":"2011-10-18T17:22:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.katylee.com\/blog\/?p=1814"},"modified":"2011-10-18T12:41:08","modified_gmt":"2011-10-18T20:41:08","slug":"im-not-worthy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/2011\/10\/18\/im-not-worthy\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m not worthy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Every time I&#8217;m asked to speak, I get very excited about it.\u00a0 I often think I have knowledge about the topic, plus I do more reading and research about it, and I feel confident.<\/p>\n<p>Then as soon as I think I&#8217;ve got a handle on the topic, I begin to feel like I know nothing. How can I be so arrogant to think that I know something?\u00a0 Have I lived my life according to the principles I&#8217;m teaching? (That&#8217;s a rhetorical question.) Am I wasting people&#8217;s time, an hour of their life they&#8217;ll never get back?<\/p>\n<p>Every time I teach, I am humbled.\u00a0 It drives me to examine myself, and be convicted of my own shortcomings.\u00a0 I am no expert, I&#8217;ve made many mistakes, I haven&#8217;t lived up to what I&#8217;m preaching.<\/p>\n<p>I am once again begging for mercy from God, and turn to totally rely on Him.<\/p>\n<p>Lest anyone thinks teaching is easy for me &#8211; because to me standing and talking in front of an audience is the easy part &#8211; the inner work of exposing my own weaknesses is the hardest of all in teaching.<\/p>\n<p>Every time I teach, I do it with fear and trembling.<\/p>\n<p>(I am preparing to teach 5 times in the next several weeks. Pray for me.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Every time I&#8217;m asked to speak, I get very excited about it.\u00a0 I often think I have knowledge about the topic, plus I do more reading and research about it, and I feel confident. Then as soon as I think I&#8217;ve got a handle on the topic, I begin to feel like I know nothing. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1814","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-thoughts-on-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1814","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1814"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1814\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1814"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1814"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/katylee.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1814"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}