I read a post where the author threw away all her journals. A reader commented that doing that would make her feel like a part of herself is gone. There’d be nothing to show that she was alive. Without memorabilia from elementary school, it would seem like that part of her life never existed.<\/p>\n
As I’m cleaning out the garage and finding my children’s childhood schoolwork, toys, scribbles, notes, etc., it does validate me that I was once a mother to 3 small children. Those were good times.<\/p>\n
Yet, it brought a lot of sadness that those days will never return. It also brought me anxiety, that I could’ve-should’ve. In hindsight, I could’ve-should’ve done more to shield them from pain, bullying, disappointments. If I had known then what I know now, I would’ve done things differently with my kids.<\/p>\n
In my head I know that’s not how life works. It’s a journey of one step at a time. You don’t know what you don’t know at the time.<\/p>\n
But in my heart, I wished I could’ve been smarter, more sensitive, more godly, more prayerful, more everything. I suppose that’s how every parent feels.<\/p>\n
How I thank God for the gospel of redemption! I thank God that all my children, despite all my shortcomings, are saved and walking with Jesus. He is all they need, not me. I rest in the truth that He will redeem all things. Redemption is His main business. Glory to God!<\/p>\n
I am ready to let go of the past. I don’t need the validation of my life in the past.<\/p>\n
I am looking forward to my future. I want write a book, impact the families at our church, disciple younger people, and see where and what God allows me to do.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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